i have a purpose

I was told yesterday that my dream, my desire and my purpose in life wasn't what was going to change the world. It hurt..

What I want to do, what I want to be involved in, is I want to work for the Government. I want to write policies, I want to be a political advisor and by doing that change the way we do society..

This man and woman, both Christians, told me if I wanted to change society all I needed to do was pray.

That I dont need to be an advisor to politicians, that by praying God would advise them.. There was no need for human input.

This made me angry (but at the time i didn't voice it..) because God doesn't ask us to just pray. He does ask us to commit things to the Lord but I love what it says in Ephesians. 

Ephesians 4 (The Message)

v 1-3    In light of all this, here's what I want you to do. While I'm locked up here, a prisoner for the Master, I want you to get out there and walk—better yet, run!—on the road God called you to travel. I don't want any of you sitting around on your hands. I don't want anyone strolling off, down some path that goes nowhere. And mark that you do this with humility and discipline—not in fits and starts, but steadily, pouring yourselves out for each other in acts of love, alert at noticing differences and quick at mending fences.

Does that say just pray? NO. That says get out there. Do stuff and God will use you for the good of his Kingdom.

I fully believe in prayer, if i didnt i wouldnt wake up at 5 every monday morning to pray, but I believe in action.

This is my call. This is what i want to do. But most of all what i believe God wants me to do.

When i was 16 someone gave me a word from God. They said, that i would face opposition, that others wouldnt understand, and that it would seem silly BUT keep at it.

I can fully see, looking at those 5 years gone by how that has played out. How people tell me i cant change anything.. How there is no point.

Well i say, watch me. Come on.. Im gonna do it! Cause if i dont, who will?

hot milo and a welcome back

so i realised i cant blog without this laptop. every blog i have written was written on it, and when it went away on holidays i couldnt write blogs without it, but now it is back with me so blogs here we come..

i feel good today.
its my day off and i havnt acheived much but i feel nice.
i woke up. watched an episode of robin hood. made an amazing coffee. watched another episode of robin hood. washed my hair and put on my favorite dress. washed my clothes. and watched another episode of robin hood while eating a very tastey brunch.
and that was just the begining.

you may have guessed that i like robin hood. its the new tv series, not the movie. its really fun. my mum bought the series for an 'early christimas present' in april. what i love is the adventure and way of life. but also maid marian is such a woman. she is fiesty, yet beautiful. I love that.

i wish i could find that balance in my life. i am oftern just seen as this angry, opinionated lady. i dont like that, but i always say something that comes across like that.

im so excited about my travel, i have been looking at the dress code for me in afghnanistan, its crazy and i dont have any suitable clothes except a head scalf which i have been wearing all afternoon just for kicks.

well im off to finish sowing some shorts, but if your still reading cheak out my favorite blogger and poet (even though i havnt read many of his poems..) at here

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my table

so i decided as i woke up this morning how interesting the books on the table next to my bed are, and how the represent where i am right now. Let me list them


- 'What is Art?' Leo Tolstoy
- 'The Irresistable Revolution' Shane Clairbourne
- 'Punk Monk' Andy Freeman & Pete Greig
- Lonely Planet Guide to Prague
- Lonely Planet Guide to Poland
- 'The Hitchhikers Guide to the Gallexy' 4 part series Douglas Adams
- Bible NIV pockety sizeish
- 'My Utmost for his Highest' Oswold Chambers
- Study guide to the book of Revelations Greg Clarke


You could read alot into this list.

Not only does it show how i dont finish books, but i am exploring different genres.
I have the classic christian books, My utmost, and Tolstoy, with your future travellers book of Lonely Planet. I have the nerdy thing happening with Hitchhickers guide, and the activist in Shanes book. I guess im a bit all over the place at the momment and i hate it. Well thats a lie im just adjusting to my changes.

I went from such structure or well working 6 days and just doing that and being on Uni break to Uni being back and learning new things. Ive started 2 new jobs and trying to get the hang of that, and also change to having sarah live in Brisbane. I dunno i like consistancy in my life and how i act, and at the momment i feel kinda inadequate, and lacking consistancy.

to live a life of worship

I love how some people have such passion for things that it takes a hold of their whole lives. I love how people can become free from the shackles of contempory life and live a live of worship for our God. I want to find that place of worship here on the coast in my own backyard, and as i search i would love to share with you the psalters.

The psalters are a group of nomadic worshipers who travel the world and worship God in all. They are apart of a movement to redeam songs of slavory and oppression to become a holy joyous praise to God.

This is their mission statement.

“we are the cry of the exodus.
there is no home for us here.
we are a nomadic tribe of psalters,
walking in the footsteps of ancients past
to the far corners of the present,
united as one voice against the
oppression within and without.
one more echo in the eternal song of our
First Love, our Hope, our Pillar of Fire.”

This passion, this zeal, this life really appeals to me.
I often feel so closed up in my life in Australia, with so many constraints of needing to do so much and not having the feedom i feel God deserves of my Life.
I know what i do each day is worshiping Christ through the little decisions i make, to the moments of sharing with others Gods love, but i would love to experience a life like they live. I think it would be such a valuble lesson on worship and loving Jesus with my all.






I miss the YWAM days of passionate prayer, even our 5am prayer sessions at point cartwright. It was amazing..



I dont know if it would ever happen, but by gosh it would be fun, challenging and so valuble.

I pray that the psalters would challenge, and inspire more people globally to find God in where they are, and to worship God in a deeper way.

check out http://www.psalters.com/

my love

Why do i love my friends so much?
Why am i constantly amazed as their strength, consistancy and passion?
Let me tell you.


There are three people in my life who I love so much..



Sarah is the first. She is my longest running best friend. We have done so much together from when I was an annoying grade 4er who stuck my finger up her nose, to going to countless gigs together and talking about life, our struggles, our passions, and boys.. What I love about jacqueline is how she can cut me down when I get worked up about something not worth it, and boosts me up when I feel inadequate to continue on.. She doesnt get embarressed when i burst out crying in the middle of the shopping centre in rage against consumerism, or in anger at where im at. She has been such a support to be and has tought me to be the person I am today. She is the best big sister ever and i wish everyone could have someone like sarah in their lives..




Jo is the next in line and although I only lived in the same city as her for 2 years I feel I have known her forever. What I love about Jo is how she is so kind, and polite, but is not a push over my an means. She is so passionate about seeing (a making) change in this world, and inspires me constantly to live that out daily. I love when I receive emails and messages of hope, and love from her, and am constantly inspired by her passion for Christ. She is one amazing woman and I hope we can be friends forever.




Gaby is the most recent addition and I lived with her even less than Jo. I lived on the coast with Gaby for just over a year and loved every day of it. I loved having her teach me to fire twirl, and play silly games, share music, and especially to drink with her. My favorite memory is sitting on Point Cartwright and crying my eyes out to her and just expressing my build up hurt. That was a real turning point for me and allowed me to move on and its Gabys compassion and zeal that helped me through. Now Gaby lives in Afghanistan and teaches English over there. She is so brave and has such stamina to keep going. She is doing an amazing job over there and inpires me in how she is so in love with Christ and is on the battlefields living Christs love for his children our there. I love when I chat to her I feel she never left yet am encoraged at her stories and delighted at how God is moulding her to be an amazing warrior woman..

I love these three women, and am constantly reminded of how lucky i am to have them in my life.
Im glad i could share with you how amaing they are. These three women will change this world we live in, each in different but equally powerful ways.

Look out world. Here they come.


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this post was aided with the support of Sigur Ros and the songs from Hvaf/Heim EP

the joneses??

"Keeping up with the Joneses" is a popular catchphrase in many parts of the English-speaking world. It refers to the desire to be seen as being as good as one's neighbours or contemporaries using the comparative benchmarks of social caste or the accumulation of material goods. To fail to "keep up with the Joneses" is perceived as demonstrating socio-economic or cultural inferiority. Wikipedia

I hate that people feel they need to compete in terms of possessions and material goods.

I hate that people feel they need to buy things for their kids when they don't actually have enough money for them.

I understand parents want to bless their kids but have we lost all creativity resulting in Presents equal Love.

I was chatting to a friend of mine and she was telling me how Christmas, New Years and her daughter's birthday had really taken a toll financially. She was saying she is now broke with no money for the son's birthday (in 3 weeks) and no money for school books when school returns (in 2 weeks). This really saddened me.

The kids had both been given portable DVD players for Christmas along with many other presents and the daughter a mobile phone for her birthday (she is 13).

I know I am not a parent and I probably don't understand what its like, but to spend so much on these events which results in no school books seems so backwards.

I hate that people feel they must buy so crazy over Christmas and it puts them into debt. I hate the way credit cards are given out so freely resulting in thousands in debt. According to an article in The Age, September 21, 2007 (yeah I know its kinda old), 'Credit card debt in Australia has topped $41 billion'. And so much is wasted. In Clive Hamilton's book Affluenza he states Australian households throw out $8 billion of food a year. That is a hell of a lot of food considering some areas of the world are dieing from malnutrition. But that is all another story.

I don't think changing standards of what society believe are necessary items will ever happen. People are greedy and markets are powerful and that cannot be over thrown.

But I do believe education is possible, and if we understand to spend what we have we can hopefully change the psyche of society.

By the way, it's not just the people who don't have much money who can't control it, its people in all wealth brackets who don't know how to budget and as a result overspend.So the theory then goes.. If we learn to budget we can say 'Screw you Joneses, Im in control of who i am' which in my opinion is much better than having the newest Playstation.

again

its been nearly a year.
and im listening to Sigur Ros again.

i love these guys so much..
i love how you can feel the sounds and imagine another place so much better than where i am now..
not that i dont like where i am now.
im sitting here minding my nephews who are playing with nuckles and a babushka doll. i love how the play together, they are so good. they make up stories which are so fun.
before my brother was playing kids songs on his guitar and we were all singing along.. riley and noah were to dance to the music. they were so amazing making little actions up to incy wincy spider and others.
i sometimes forget they are only 3 and 4. such great boys.

im starting to pack for melbourne. but im too lazy, to think what i might need to wear for the next 12 days and cause i have no idea what ill be doing i have to be prepared for camping, clubing and market-ing.
and the damn weather changes all the time..
the obvious thing would be to take lots of stuff. but i hate doing that. and having to cart it around the whole time im there,
i guess that just leaves me to either think or borrow when i get there..

i really want heima// it looks like such a grand dvd..

it will be mine soon/
mwahahahah...


merry boxing day