annoyances

i truly hate guys who mock other women who dress with hardly any clothes on.
ive been down mooloolaba esplanade many times and had friends laugh about girls quite drunk stumbling down the street probley freezing but still half naked.

this is a big problem and i hate the hypocrisy of it all.
i mean why do girls were close to nothing?
to get the attention and admiration of guys.

so if guys were serious about it and showed love to those girls no matter what they were wearing then maybe some of the women would gain the integrity to wear more.

i truly believe thats the only way things will change.
the guys making the sincere effort.
sure us girls need to continue to love on them and set the example of dressing but it needs a whole wack from the guys side.

im mean if that isnt the case. if they do prefer women to wear close to nothing for them to gaze at..
then dont mock them. leave them alone for you to stare at.

all they want is a bit of love.
thats all we all want.

that is all.. for now..

you are beautiful, but you dont mean a thing to me

well an hour ago i was going to bed,
but im not their yet.
i keep thinking of times i have lied, directly to peoples faces.
like the time someone rang to talk to my mum on the phone and she thought i was her for so long that i didnt have the heart to tell her otherwise and so i went along with it and kept up the act. what i said wasnt true and my mum had to later call up and say to the lady that she actually was talking to me (her daughter) pretending to be her (my mum). how awkward would that be.
i lied and got myself the job i have now. but you all know that story. i lied to people alot and i dont know why. i mean im not as bad as natalie portmans charactor (i have a mind block and cant remember her name) in garden state, how she lies all the time about everything, but i still dont know why i do.
i swear like a man in the navy, and i am constantly reminded by my sister i have a potty mouth.
i need to change.
i am ment to be a mentor, role model and friend to kids who are trying break into the christian life and here i am telling them one thing and saying another.
i need to get a good smack round the head and get my act together..
but will i change? i know with that attitude i wont.
freak. im tired, this is stupid.
kimm

*you are beautiful, but you dont mean a thing to me*